random notes

1. a much better week than last week was. last week was spent in the depths of the dungeon. this week, i'm taking it and pouring it into the beginnings of my first fictional work...which may not be complete for another nineteen years...but i AM working on it. the inspiration for this story helps me understand further so much of what i've walked thru and AM walking thru as we speak. The main character is becoming a companion of sorts for me...he speaks and i relate...writing fiction is a little scary...but i'm gonna do my damndest...

2. cannot watch the news these days. makes me too angry and fussy. george bush sat in office for eight years and lied and destroyed this country's reputation on a worldwide scale and no one, republican or democrat, exposed him to the degree that i personally think he should have been exposed. yet, after a brief 7 months in office, the republicans think that it is okay to behave like petulant children, standing up and screaming LIAR at a man who is so obviously working to restore what is good about America. let me also say that i find these right wing extremist parents who feel the need to 'guard' their children from obama's speeches absolutely abhorent. These are the same people who do indeed clutch to guns and bibles and live their lives marching off to war with the cross of jesus going on before. they are offended because he's telling children that they can help change the country. i often wonder what america they live in. yes, america is great...but anything that is great, can afford to be made greater. racism, poverty, sickness still exist and there are still laws of equality to be fought for. yes we can improve. yes we need to change.

3. approaching another birthday next week. it's been quite a year. ironically, i will be in nasvhille the week after my birthday working with elizabeth cunningham on her 'maevensongs'. it will be interesting to be back in my old 'home' at that time. perhaps i will find some answers...or maybe have some more questions when i get back home to NY.

i intended on having more to say, but this is it....enjoy this video clip of teena marie on the TJMS a few weeks ago. i listened live when this aired and cried when i heard it. there's something magical in that voice. seeing it on this video and hear it acapella without the keyboard that was accompanying her makes it even more poignant IMO.