never like this

tonight's rehearsal was something. SOMETHING. we had two full band rehearsals and felt spirit...but i guess it's only fitting that the rehearsal most reminiscent of how SOULKISS began would be the one where it really happened: right in the living room.

we sat down tonight to work out a few kinks. we did so, and then went into a song that we are doing in a tribute segment of the show and something different happened with it. the rhythm changed...the cadence shifted...the mood moved. i guess the simplest way to say it is that the holy ghost came in.

charlene moore began doing what she does best: feeling it. the hairs on my arm stood up and i began doing my back and forth rock. we got locked into a call and response that simply said "Never...never...never like this"...and in my mind, i fell into the moment.

never. like. this.

this.

the moment jumped out like a 3d movie. i remembered where i was this time last year. scared out of my mind. i had just made the decision to move to new york. i didn't really know if i could. there was alot of uncertainty. a friendship that i treasured was unravelling. and here i sit now. a year later.

yes, there is still a long way to go, but i have spent the past 10 months doing what i love...with people that i love...and expanding relationships that nourish and encourage. i am creatively entirely fulfilled. the music that we are creating is what i have wanted to do my whole career. my whole life actually.

so yes. i've been in love before, but never like this. just in love with life--even the low moments. i feel myself getting stronger...all of this comradarie is like strength in my bones. i pull on it and remember in the lonely, midnight hours...when i think it's just me...and i remember that i have combrogos...companions....

it is the most amazing time of my life. i have walked thru the hard times. the devistation. the heartbreak. the disappointment. and here i am.

never like this.